The Calling of Motherhood

For a long time the responsibility of becoming a mother has kind of intimidated me. I know that it is my responsibility and role as a woman to raise my children. Even though I know this, coming to accept this for myself has required a long process of study and prayer. I am grateful that God has allowed me to think through this in my own time and way. Although He knows what will bring us the most happiness, He wants us to desire that knowledge for ourselves and will never force it upon us.

Even though I have come to peace with the fact that I should embrace the role of motherhood, I still have had feelings of fear and inadequacy when I consider actually being a mother. I have seen how draining and demanding this role is and I have wondered how I will be able to find joy through motherhood. As I read through some assignments in my Marriage Preparation class, I began to have some of my concerns resolved.

One quote that changed my perspective a bit was found in the talk “Being a Righteous Husband and Father” by President Howard W. Hunter. He says, “Motherhood is near to divinity. It is the highest, holiest service to be assumed by mankind.” It made me pause to think of the implications of this statement. Of all the roles I could have, be it successful career woman, friend, advocate, etc. the role of mother is highest. Another teacher reemphasized this point in class when he explained that motherhood is a calling through which a woman can become more Christ-like than any other calling in this world. Clearly anything that is worth it in this world requires sacrifice. But the blessings are always much more valuable than what we lose. I began to feel that despite my fears and inadequacies, motherhood will bring me so much more than what I will sacrifice.

Additionally, as cliché as it sounds, I have always wanted to in some way change the world. For this reason I have chosen to study social work at school. Yet a comment in Elder Scott’s talk “The Joy of Living the Great Plan of Happiness,” caused me to pause and consider where I can most effectively achieve this goal. He said “Government and social plans will not effectively correct [a weakened home], nor can the best efforts of schools and churches fully compensate for the absence of the tender care of a compassionate mother and wife in the home.” I realized that my impact in my own future home will be far more significant that whatever policy changes or social work I can perform. My social work professor reaffirmed this idea in class the other day. She said that the greatest joy and accomplishment she has found is through her responsibility as a wife and mother.

I still do not know how the details of my life will work out. I do not know what God has planned for me. But I do know that when the time comes I want to dedicate myself to raising my children. This will bring me greater joy and closer to God than anything else I can do in this world.

Changing to Improve Marriage

I loved the talk written by Elder Dallin H. Oaks called “The Challenge to Become.” I think this applies so well to marriage. It is quite simple for anyone to be married and to have the title of husband and wife, but it is a completely different level to become a good spouse and a good couple. This requires a process of sanctification and sacrifice, just life anything else in the gospel.
Just as Elder Oaks discusses, a recent circumstance in my life made me realize that sometimes the difficult things in our given to us to strengthen us. These trying, hard things allow us to readjust our perspectives and be elevated for a bit to a more eternal perspective. The difficult things that happen to us are really an opportunity to draw closer to God and learn to discover what He wants for us. We just need to be willing to humble ourselves and ask Him to help us see.
This process of changes our perspectives is what we need to be able to have an other centered love as President Hinckley discusses in his talk “Except the Lord build the house…” As we learn to readjust our perspective about life in general, this will enable us to learn to adjust our perspective about our spouses. Rather than focusing on the negative, we can choose to actively identify the positive qualities in the other person. This will in turn empower us and help us to better recognize our own divine attributes.
Also, reading this article taught me that the success of my marriage lies heavily on me. I need to focus more on the changes I can make in myself, rather than criticizing my husband. By constantly seeking to improve and strengthen my relationship with God, my relationship with my husband and children will naturally improve as well. The gospel has been structured to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man and this happens through marriage. Naturally when we do our best to follow the principles of the gospel we will be happier in our marriages.

Marriage that Lasts Forever

There have been a lot of things going through my mind recently due to what has happened to some people that I taught while I was a missionary for my church, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. In one family that I taught, the father, Bernardo, recently passed away. I love this family as though they are part of my own family. It seems unreal to me that Bernardo really has died. It has been a hard thing to go through and I wish I could do something more to help the family during this difficult time.
I haven't yet had the opportunity to really process my feelings about this and really come to grips with how I feel. And yet, despite how hard it is, I have a reassuring peace understanding that Bernardo will see his family again. I know that through the gospel of Jesus Christ we can have the opportunity to live with our families forever. It is amazing to me that through making promises with God in sacred buildings called temples, we can be sealed and connected with our family for all time and eternity. Marriage does not need to be "til death do us part."
Bernardo and his wife Maria have done work in the temple and his family is going to finish the process so that they can all be an eternal family. These truths are so important and it's amazing to me that we can share these things over the internet. I have a great hope that maybe something I say here will give others the opportunity to learn how they too can be with their families forever.
Next weekend I will drive down to Los Angeles where another family I taught will have this special service performed called a temple sealing. This service ties a family together for all eternity. It brings me such peace and happiness to think of this family and the blessings that God has prepared for them. I am so grateful to God and how He works in our lives to make it possible for us to be blessed and receive happiness. I know that as we keep trying to do the little things to come closer to Him, He will always reach to us and continue to teach and bless us. I know that God wants us to be married not just for this life, but for all eternity.
Despite how difficult death can be, I know that it is not the end. I know that God has a beautiful plan prepared for us so that we have the opportunity to choose to be with our families forever. I am grateful for that and will continue to do what I need to, to be worthy of those blessings that God has prepared for me.